It's been 2 years plus since my last post!
Well, I didn't mean to purposely missing in action (MIA) for this long. Haha.. But of course, I think I really well spent my 730 days+++.......... (Maybe? For real)
Why is it that I am mentioning the 2 years bond?
Well, basically, right after my graduation (Nope. Is even before I officially graduates), I jump straight into the so called "Adulthood" world.
Maybe I was too rushing, or maybe, I am just an ordinary graduates with no clear life direction and nothing to loss. Ha-ha.
Well well well, the 2 years bond is actually my official contract job after graduate.
The job as: Application Project Consultant,
So this long lost post was all due to the 2 years bond. (Thanks Boss, for fully utilised my time. :x)
In this 2 years, I really appreciate what I have seen, learn and even thoughts.
I am glad that I chose this job (even though at first I don't know what am I doing, like a dumbass. Haha. :v) But I am glad this job give me opportunity to travel up and down in MSIA dealing with different client with similar but different challenges in the Human Resources Field.
Well, dealing with the real adult, it somewhat makes me see how life really do to our lives, basically the reality.
As time pass, my thoughts become more mature, I'd start to think about the pros and cons in making any decision. I'd start to think if I am bearable to the consequences or not in case I have made the wrong decision.
And of course, the most importantly, I start to think about my life direction.
Few years back, my life direction is so simple.
Study, Graduate, Get a Job, Get a Good Date & Get Married, and Last - Happy Family. (I have all the title of what I want to achieve, basically all about little girl imagination, but nothing about the process or the story in it, for ex: how to get a job, how to make your family accept your partner etc.) My thought was so simple back then that I thought I could just find a guy who love me and I love him and get a happy live ever after. (What a naive little girl)
But after my 730 days working and socialising, I started to think more & more & more & more...... (Never ending thoughts, that is why I have so many grey hair now, DAMN)
I think my life direction is still moving towards that direction but it's now more about the efforts and the process working towards that direction.
For example, the target is the same: Get Married.
But before you can get marriage, you need to have a boyfriend who can understand you and of course is acceptable by all the family members (If it's not, you gotta deal with it or leave it etc), then it comes the money issues (all the basic things you need to support your family), then it comes to engagement and others ups and downs and so on.
It's more into the process to learn to be patient and get several things associate with each other (like work vs boyfriend vs parents vs husband vs wife vs friend. Haha.) in order to achieve something you really want in your life. What I really want to express here is, the WORK-LIFE BALANCE. Sounds easy but can be difficult at some time. Haha.
Coming back to the story of 730 days++ repeated daily schedule...
What I get to see within this 2 years is like... Many people around me, especially those people who work for a long period of time are REALLY afraid to step out from the current comfort zone.
I do have this feeling when I was working for around 1 years plus with the bonding on because when I start to get used to what I am doing and familiar with the environment, things changed (for example, policy changed, scheme changed, etc) Well, change to a better one or a bad one is all depends on own perception.
From my point of view, it turns out to be a bad one (I would say: A REAL BADASS policy). Well, things do get hard and really challenge my nerve at time, but that not the reason to resign yet. As I want to see, how much I can adapt to the changes.
And eventually, I understand the fact where: Changes will never adapt to you but you will have to be the one that adapt the changes. Meh. Sounds depressive but nope that's just a fact of life if you can understand it.
My only thoughts now is, comfort zone is always the best but life will be no fun if you are not battling with yourself or doing something crazy for yourself.
It's been 2 years+ & I have really dig in to learn learn learn and learn & pushed myself over my limit battling with my own dilemma. I think I did it great because I am starting to see my hard works somewhat paid off now. Hahaha.. And of course, the greater will be coming. Sooner or later.
At such, I still have to battle for a few more years until I can finally say: Screw this. Nah, welcome back WORK-LIFE BALANCE. Welcome, the life I really want. Hahaha. (In chinese: The life of a ... rice worm. HA!)
Little sharing of my thoughts:-
1. It's fun to be YOLO. But make sure you YOLO with knowing what you're currently doing. (Don't go beyond the moral. Stay balanced.)
2. It is true that bosses always say: You're young and you have nothing to loss. Don't believe it fully because always bear in mind, we do have something to loss and we always have something to loss, so it is important to make way for ourselves (Always leave a road B for yourself *wink*).
3. It is not wrong to think differently from others, but it is not advisable to be different from the society. Be careful of the thinking: I am myself, I am who I am.
4. When you are young, learn as much as you can and Do It without grumble. Value will grow afterwards.
5. Be dare to speak, and be dare to plan for yourself. Make use of your own resources, don't let others overly used up your resources.
6. Always be positive even life give you a negative value.
Well, that's it for now.
I shall post again after awhile.
Just a hint, I will be posting nostalgia moment that I have missed out to post in my 730 days++...
[Till Then]
[Stay Strong]
